
I stopped dying my hair almost 10 years ago.People would ask me if my gray streaks were on purpose.Some would say my hair reminded them of Rogue from x men. I never read the comic or the movies. But I would smile and say thank you.There were even some people that said I'm brave for making the choice that they couldn't do yet.But after nearly 10 years its not so novel as it was in my 30s.I'm older now, catching up with my grays.No longer "too young" for silver streaks.I want to dye it so bad. And I'm worried.Worried that people will notice.Ask me why now.Worried that it will be obvious to everyone that I miss my youth.When I look in the mirror sometimes I don't even recognize myself.A part of me staring at her thinking we don't match.I think I look like a elder politician that will never retire.
 As if dying my hair will change that.
 I imagine it will be a harsh contrast.
 Making that reflection even more jarring.I feel stuck in my authenticity.

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